Sunday, January 17, 2010



Finally blogger is alright now.
Have been wanting to blog since a week ago, but seems like Firefox and blogger are not on good terms.


















 
Anyway, school sucks recently.
Projects projects and still projects.
Overnight overnight and still overnight.
Good thing is that now 2 projects are over and done with, left with only marketing and Econs! But there are still loads of things to do for Econs...

Everyone seems to be shagggggg.








Except me =D







Ton king.

keke.


Results for mid sem test sucked.
and i dont want to talk about it, it will just add on to my FMLs.

Moodswings seems to be getting a hold of me nowadays.
Moodswings that swing as fast as flipping a page.
At times, i can be very high and start to make a fool out of myself or start talking to people whom i've never met before, or smiling like an idiot to myself.
But the next second,
i start to keep quiet and choose to be alone,
Sometimes i would just walk, walk and walk...
And end up not knowing the reason why im at that place.
And when im alone, i tend to think alot.
Like really alot.
But the thoughts just wont bring me anywhere,
my thoughts can go round the universe but end up just the place it started.

Maybe its really true when people say that some things in life just cant be comprehend even if it takes a lifetime.


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On a lighter note, 
I have been contemplating whether or not to play milo cup this year, since its the last year for me.
and also i have been saying that i would like to return to the past.
And back then, my past were all about basketball.
Days when the only thing you need to think about when you wake up is how to put that ball into the hoop,
Days when the only place you go is that rundown basketball court,
Days when the only thing you did was basketball and sleep, nothing else,
Days when you played 24 hr with your best partner.
Days when you played half naked.
Days when you still want to be on court even if you are injured,

Days when team mates on court are actually much closer than your family members,
Days when you actually can get really angry cos you didnt played well that day,
Days when you can get really happy when no one can stop you,
Days when all you talk about is that orange ball,
Days when you feel really happy even when playing under the hottest sun, the coldest night,
Days when you feel that its worth it to play basketball even if you fail all your subjects.
Days when you spend with your team mates during overseas competitions,
Days when you actually look forward to meeting your team mates at the gym toilets,
Days when you feel you are part of something when your team is announced the Champs.
Days when you put on a smile when you are sleeping even though you cried because of the intense training earlier.
Days when you feel like giving up but your team mates keeps you moving on,
Days when your basketball teacher in-charge are the few best teachers you ever had,
Days when you sleep together with your smelly team mates on a train,
Days when.....
Things were much simpler.


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Accounting test tmr.
Went to study at airport with Amos ytd, overnight again.
And now, jeremy and amos are at my house studying acct. 
Overnight again!
Zzzz.


ANYWAY! 5 more days to the arrival of my bike!!
till then...








Saturday, January 2, 2010

2010 Good, bad ?


So its 2010.
Frankly speaking, nothing special...
except that its my last year of teenagehood =(


Anyway,
My new year resolution for this year is to be financially independent.
Not going to take money from parents for the things that i want.
So the plans for my bike have changed.
Im going to work and pay for it myself, instead of splitting it half half with my mother.

Recently, lady luck have not been accompanying me through the last few days of 2009.
Lots of unhappy things happened.
Each time something bad happens, i will try to look at the situation from a different angle and try to console myself.
But each time just before i get over it, another setback will hit me.
Getting harder and tougher each time.

So? Life still goes on...

Maybe not after today.

Just 3 days back, while i was on my way home after my bike lesson.
I saw a man who met with a accident lying in the middle of the road, his bike was a few meters away from him, people were gathering around him, a man doing CPR on him.
The first thing i thought to myself was,
"Maybe this morning he promised his family that he would be back for dinner."
"He didnt even expect that he will be counting down in the hospital."


It came clear to me that,

Life is short and fragile.
Part of me want to be 50 years old now actually.

So i dont have to worry that i might be gone anytime.

So im going to live my life to the fullest starting from this moment!
No regrets!

Added to my new year resolution as well.


Not a very inspiring post for the first post in 2010.
But, im sure it means smth to me!