The past.

The past is something that can neither be brought back nor bought back,
let bygones be bygones.(unless you invent a time-machine, which i think will be a big hit).
Im not sure what gave you the confidence to regain the trust that you had for me, after each time i had taken it for granted, after each time i betrayed it.
But each time you came back stronger, more determined than before, more persistent than before. But im sorry.
Maybe it is bcause i lack the confidence in myself, wondering if im able to fulfill the wishes that you make,
Maybe it is bcause the guilt within me,
Maybe it is bcause i dont wanna see you in such a devastated state anymore.
But im sure, i dont deserve it anymore. Not a single bit.
So i guess maybe the pain that you are going through now will be much lesser than, if we get back together, in the long run.
My mind is set. Stop trying, your attempts will be futile.